A better day

not so down this morning it's a minute to minute fight to stay on top I usually do pretty good, but on occasion I feel like I'm being sucked down the toilet. I hate it when that happens. I'm usually pretty good at hiding my despair and I like it that way. It's not that I can't talk about it. It's just that I don't feel anybody really understands or cares. You know how you ask someone 'How are you doing?' but you don't really listen to the answer. And also alot of times people just don't know what to say or do to make it better. And I so understand that because I have a hard time knowing what to say or do when someone is having a hard time. I feel helpless. and awkward.