my mind is spinning

I can't seem to be able to hold onto a thought for a single second. My brain spins all of the time, no wonder I'm having major sleep problems. not necessarily worry about Boyce and the Alzheimer's, just rethinking my life as if I can do anything about the past. thinking the future as if I can do a whole lot about that. I AM finally at peace about the suck job. I've been offered another job, but it would be the same amount of hours but getting more then $2 less an hour, and I've concluded I just can't do that. I'm better off to stay at this job until the time I have to quit to take care of Sweetie. I will have to cancel my health insurance in November, but that can't be helped. I need that $140 a month for other bills. I will be checking into Medicare and Medicaid as a caregiver that would help alot, but I'm not for sure it's possible. We'll see.