I have committed to writing more often. Obviously for my own benefit. I can post on Facebook, but I feel like I have to be careful about what I say and how I say it and who might I hurt from saying it. And it results in a sometimes blurred statement of my feelings. Here I can just tell it like it is. I can speak like my momma, who didn't mince words. She wasn't cruel, but, by golly, she just said what she thought and if you didn't like it 'Oh Well'.
I have a variety of concerns and horrors dealing with this. Money is still and always will be a biggie. Concern that I am not doing something for him that I should or could do. Of course, the lack of family support is huge and maddening. Here again, I would like to be like Mom and just speak my mind and if it hurts you, so be it. I would have to belief if what I say hurts you then you are probably not doing what you should or could be doing to help. Another problem on my part is all of these jumbled feelings and thoughts. I can't seem to get my own mind organized how can I expect Boyce to and he has the disease. Even though, we joke we sometimes take turns having it and it's all good, except on the days we both have it.
Anyways, I love ya'll for listening to my crazy ramblings.
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